Life Changing Events

Ever so often in life we come across events which change who we are as people, change our priorities, our thinking. They change how we see things, how we react, how we value life. People call them life altering events, which in truth they are, but just not for everyone. 20 people could witness the same event and it would affect them differently.

I recently witnessed one such event; an event which changed me as a person; an event which made me look at life differently and re-evaluate my priorities. It made me look at things and people around me more closely. It made me question one of my biggest beliefs; made me question my dependency on people. Till a few weeks back whenever anyone would say that you should be in a relationship my answer to them was why everybody is so dependent on relationships? Why do you want everyone to have a boyfriend/girlfriend? We all eventually will get married and find our life partners so why put so much importance on that one relation? I was always happy for people who had someone but I never truly felt the need for that someone special until very recently. I was always happy with the people around me because they understood me and loved me for who I was. Then a few things happened and it got me questioning my own belief on this topic. The event last week was like the last nail on the coffin. The truth is you do need someone special in your life; you do need someone in whose life you are a priority and who is not just a priority in yours; someone who will be there through your highs and lows; someone from whom you can expect a little bit more.

I have a great set of friends, people who have always supported me and been there for me but today I want more. I may be right or I may be wrong but suddenly the importance of that certain someone in life has risen quite a few notches. So to all the people who say that you do need someone I agree with you today. All said and done I would still maintain one thing; you still need to be at peace with yourself before you can be in harmony with someone at else. So yes you do need someone but just ensure that you don’t lose yourself to that person or that relation. I can’t help but remember this one line from a song from the movie “U Me or Hum” – “Tum, Tum bhi raho, main, main bhi rahon, hum, hum bhi rahen”

Tanhai

ek baat ho li chupke se
jo dil ko chu gayi kahin
roya yeh dil aise ki
aawaz bhi nai sunayi di kahin

bheed main bhi tanhai mili
aur mehfil main udasi
doston ke beech akelapan naseeb hua
jisse hone laga zindagi ka guzara

aisi rahon par hum chal diye
jihne kehte hai log tanha
ek baat ho li chupke se
ab toh dil roya bhi nahin

Dil

Dil ka haal bayaan kare toh kaare kaise
Dil se baat chupaye toh bhala kaise
Dil sunta hai kisi ki kahan
yeh toh bhatakta hai aawaron ki tarah

kabhi ruth jaata hai yuhin
kabhi sur gungunata hai naye
kabhi ithlata kabhi itrata hai kahin
kisi par aa jaye toh chanchal ho jaata hai kahin

choti choti khushiyan manata hai yeh pagla
ruth jaaye toh ro deta hai ek pal main
ilteja hai use jise dil denge yeh
sambhaal kar rakhna naazuk hai bada yeh

tootega toh aawaz aayegi nai
chot itni gehri lagegi ke dikhayi degi nai
shayad phir yeh pyaar kaar na paaye
agar pyaar main dhoka yeh khaaye

Dil ki baatein tumhe aur sunaye kya
isse bada raaz duniye main hai hi kahan!!

Something close to my heart

Was going through stuff on my Lappi and came across this


Everything happens for a reason
So many things change with the season
Once in a while you find someone who really cares
Someone with whom it is easy to share
Someone who you can hold tight
Who will tell u what’s right
Someone who you can trust
Who will listen without ever making a fuss
Someone who will appreciate you even if it means going against the trends
Someone who is more a sister than a friend
Once in a while you find a gem
Someone so precious you feel lucky to have them
In you I found that person who made me dare
You have something inside you that makes you so rare
6 years have now gone by
But with u the time just seems to fly
There is never a moment in life which I can call dull
And if someone contradicts me I would just say to them “Bull”
I wrote this poem in hope that it would make some sense
But in the end I realized that for poetry my head is too dense!!!


The best part is that this still holds true and I can replace 6 with 8!!

Crossroads

Standing here in the dark
Wondering life will lead me down which path
I can hear relations break
The silent echoes of relations cared

Beloved ones vanish one by one
Enveloped by the haze of events unseen
Saying goodbye was never so hard
Moving forward was never a task

Life is going down paths unknown
The past is but a dream, the future yet unseen
Living in the present seems so hard
The eerie calm before the storm

Wondering what is wrong and right
Standing at the crossroads of life

Dost

doosron ki hasi main khushi dhundhna
unke gam main dujhi hona
kabhie roothna kabhie manana
kabhie has kar baat taal dena
dil ki baatein itminaan se batana
unke saath achhe bure pal bitana
zindagi main mil jaaye aise log
jinko dekh dil bole 'haan yeh hain humare dost'

My attempt at hindi

zindagi ke safar main log milte hai kayi
kabhi satate kabhi manate hai wohi
man lubhate toh hai kayi
saath nibhate sirf chuninda koi

din dhalke raat ho jaati hai
zindagi ke safar main rahein tang ho jaati hai
in anjaan rahoon par rahe jo aapke paas
unka shukriya-ada karna zaroor aap

kabhi koi mile jo aapko khaas
rakhna unko aapne dil ke paas
chahe woh ho dost ya aur koi
dil se nibhana rishte sabhi

aakhir zindagi ke safar nirale hai bade
kabhi rulate kabhi hasate hain hume